Monday, November 24, 2008

It's Monday. And I'm still not out of this funk. I truly don't know what is wrong with me- I am walking around moping- being depressed- for no good reason. It's really starting to frustrate me and I just wish that I could understand or at least have better control over my own emotions. I'm sorry- this probably is coming out sounding crazy- but I'm beginning to think that I am. I am so, truly blessed in my life- with a husband that is beyond amazing, friends & family that love me unconditionally, a job, a house, a dog, more material needs than anyone could need and yet I have just been so bummed out for the past couple of weeks. I think what bums me out even more is that I have always been so extremely content with my life and my decisions-- and now all of the sudden, out of no where, I am questioning everything. Why do we live here? Why do we work here? UGH. I have kind of been through these "funks" at other times in my life- doesn't everyone? - but never for this long and it's really frustrating me. Anyway.... I really tried to just forget about the thoughts buzzing in my mind this weekend and enjoy myself...

Thursday night we all attended the midnight showing of Twilight. And WOW. Obviously- this deserves it's own post- so stay tuned later. It wasn't hard to forget my issues this night.

Friday I had the day off of work. Had an eye appointment and spent the day running errands. We met my parents and some friends later that afternoon and did some drinking & chatting. I wasn't feeling the best {I was basically feeling like my eyes were sinking into my head-- I'm sure due to the poking and proding at my eyes earlier in the day.} But enjoyed ourselves nonetheless.

I'm a little embarrased to tell you what I did Saturday afternoon- but you know what, I actually don't care. I went to see Twilight again with Hollie & Stacey.... SO much better the 2nd time. {will explain later.} And then Brian and I went furniture shopping for a bit- we need some new couches asap! We found one set that we really like {it's a beautiful seafoam color!} but we're still trying to decide if we want to get it before Christmas or wait until January?? So we picked up a pizza from our favorite place and headed home to relax and watch movies all night.

Sunday I had the choice to sit home and watch football all day or go and see Twilight again. Yep, that's right. I actually saw the movie THREE times this weekend- which pretty much makes me the equivalent of every screaming, teenage girl in America. :) I probably should be a bit more embarrased than I am, but oh well. It was soooo worth it. And of course, Hollie & Stacey joined me again. I'm lucky that my husband is so supportive. When I told him that I was actually thinking about going again on Sunday and telling him how ridiculous I felt- he said well, it's basically the same as me playing this video game over & over- so I understand! Well I'm glad that he does at least. ;)

After the movie, Brian met up with me and my two most favorite lovelies from college- Katie and Jackie. ALL the way from Minnesota & Wisconsin! Unfortunately, this meeting wasn't under the best circumstances. A dear friend of mine, Lindsay's, mother passed away after a long, courageous battle with cancer, and my friends were in town so we could all attend the service for her. Lindsay is honestly the strongest woman that I know- and it is no question where she gets this from! Her mother will be dearly missed.

After the service Katie, Jackie and I decided a dinner was in order- and indeed it was. We had so much to catch up on. But that's the great thing about having friends like this- no matter how long it has been since we were last together- things always seem to pick up right where they left off. It's very comforting to say the least. In the span of one dinner we were all caught up! {and believe me- there was a lot to catch up on!} Not only was it great seeing my friends after so long, but they knew exactly how to make me feel better. I shouldn't be surprised! They are amazing and I love them dearly. And they will be VERY happy that they made it onto the blog today!! HaHa. Sadly girls- I wasn't the best blogger last night because I didn't take a picture of us. Luckily we have plenty from the past five years to make up for it.
{ Jennifer. Lindsay. Katie. Jackie. Brianna. Me on top. :) }

Went home and hung out with the family and read some more of New Moon. And now here I am. I really hope I snap out of this soon. I hate being sad. And it's even worse being sad for no good reason. I'm sure I'll come around eventually...

currently listening to :: to roam by robert pattinson.

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Anonymous said...

Hope you cheer up soon honey...everyone goes through a funk at some point. Things will get better :)

Anonymous said...

My name is Allysa and I just recently found your blog! I have to say I LOVE LOVE LOVE it! From your daily life to Twilight, it's all good! I don’t feel bad now that I waited in line for about an hour to see Twilight on Friday and really, really wanna see it again! You've inspired me to do so! So I just wanted to say how much I love your blog and how your always so honest! I don't have a blog but i would love to chat on facebook!

Thanks! =) Allysa

Chelsea said...

Hi Allysa-- so glad that you enjoy my random musings! :) Keep in touch!