hiatus.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008


I'm sure you've already noticed- but I've been on a bit of a blogging hiatus lately. Between the holidays, and houseguests, and vacation days- things haven't been exactly routine around here lately {not that I'm complaining.} Anyway, we had a fabulous Christmas and I've been taking care of lots of odds & ends and relaxing these past few days on a vacation from work. I'm sure things will be back to normal next week and I can go into detail about the craziness of this past week. I have been updaing my tumblr periodically though. ;)

{stewardesses.}


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solo tour.

Monday, December 22, 2008

This is the most amazing thing ever... Ben Gibbard of Death Cab was on tour with David Bazan {Pedro the Lion} and Jonathan Rice, but looky who bumped into them in NC and traveled all the way with them to DC!!
None other than John Krasinski {my beloved Jim from the Office!} Can you believe it? I honestly couldn't believe my eyes!! I didn't think it was possible to love him anymore. OH how I was wrong!! If you're a fan of either, you must check out Ryan Russell's exclusive photos and tales of the good times they had. Oh what I would give to be a fly on that tour bus....


John even did a bit with Ben on stage!!!!!!!! I would die to see this!!!!

Seriously- this just totally made my day!! LOVE IT!!!!

And huge props to Ryan Russell for his amazing photos of this awesomeness. You rock.



currently listening to :: use somebody by kings of leon.


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HAPPY BIRTHDAY HOLLIE!

Friday, December 19, 2008


It's hard to imagine, but my little baby sister turns 17 today! Yes, 17!! Holy crap. It so surreal to describe how our relationship has changed and grown over the years, as it has. We now have an "adult" relationship, as opposed to ripping each other's hair out, so it is a very good thing. But hard to believe nonetheless.

Hollie I love you to death. I can't imagine this world without you in it. You are going to do some amazing things. And I can't wait to be there for them.

I love you everything I have. Lalu always.


currently listening to :: soft by kings of leon. {duh!!}

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miss dior cherie.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

As if I didn't already love my Miss Dior Cherie parfum enough.....




I totally would have checked it out after seeing this commercial. It's equally as lovely as the parfum itself. :)


currently listening to :: town where you belong by earlimart.


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buurrrrrr....

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


It's so fricking cold here!! UGH. Someone please remind me why I live in Iowa?? Not only is it a frozen tundra outside, but it's been snowing all day. GREAT. The first snowfall is wonderful- full of magic and beauty. The second is okay, but tired and true. By the third- I just want it to end already.

In more exciting news- it is reported that New Moon will release in theaters on November 20th. That's less than a year people! Hell yes!!

Anyway- that's all I have for now. It's been a long and cold day. I have to bake six dozen of something Christmas-related tonight to bring into to work tomorrow- this should be good. If you know me at all, you also know that I'm not much of a cook {or, er baker}. Ha, who am I kidding? I am no cook at all! Looks like I will need me a bottle of wine to get through this one {I'm sure this will only improve my baking skills.}

{stewardesess.}



currently listening to :: christmas {baby please come home} by death cab for cutie.


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why am i not myself??

Monday, December 15, 2008

It was a whirlwind of a weekend; that is becoming all too common these days. Our time was spent....

01. Hanging out with the regular crew- the girls drank wine and talked and danced and the boys drank beer and talked and played COD. The usual. A lovely time catching up in our all too busy lives.

02. Cleaning the house. Blah.

03. Got some Christmas presents wrapped, but we no where near as far in this process as I hoped we would be by now. Looks like we will be out with the other crazies this weekend finishing up our shopping. Lovely.

04. My Christmas work party was scheduled for Saturday night- but was postponed last minute due to an illness of one of my co-workers. Brian and I took advantage of this rare night in and curled up on the couch with lots of movies, spaghetti, and G of course. :)

05. The first on our list was I Heart Huckabees. I hadn't revisted this movie in quite some time, and I always forget just how much I love it....


06. We also watched Running With Scissors {which has implored me into the incredulous life of Augusten Burroughs}, Mad Money, and Knocked Up.


07. Woke up early on Sunday and got some things done around the house. But I was quickly interupted by one hell of a migrane and spent the majority of the day in bed watching One Tree Hill {not that I'm complaining; but I do believe this to be the reason that my weekend darted past me.}

08. I also learned of Summit's confirmation of their new, much-speculated, director for New Moon; Chris Weitz! I am very excited and very nervous. But his letter to the fans was awesome and I'm feeling more confident as the days pass.


So, here we are, Monday again. Lots to get done this week... here's to hoping I can keep up.


currently listening to :: yankee bayonet by the decemberists.


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i want you to...

Friday, December 12, 2008

I was lucky enough to be Missy's "date" last night- which meant I got to attend the grand opening of a nearby venue with her-- and believe me, we were VIP. Free food & drinks all night. And did I mention 4th row seats to see Cheap Trick!! Hell yes. :)



And man did they rock it out!!!! YES!!! And please don't mind my completely obliterated face in this picture- I did mention free drinks, right? What do you expect. Grey Goose Vodka Red Bulls all night.... I'm surprised I wasn't on the floor!

What a GREAT time!!!! Thanks for thinking I'm VIP Miss! Love you!


currently listening to :: supermassive black hole by muse.

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spunk ransom.



So I have been keeping pretty mum about everything Twilight on here lately. But you should have known that doesn't mean I haven't been keeping up to speed on everything. As of late, there are a lot of new & interesting developments....

01. Catherine Hardwicke, Twilight's director, has bowed out for the sequels. They stated this was due to time issues, but many theories are floating around that it has more to do with Catherine wanting to do New Moon the right way, and Summit wanting it done fast and low-budget {{very worried over here.}}

02. The latest buzz via EW is that Chris Weitz will take on the role as the new director. His past work {directing & producing} includes both good {About A Boy; Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist; In Good Company} and not-so-good {The Golden Compass; American Pie} so I'm really not sure how I feel about it yet. It hasn't been confirmed by Summit yet, so it's not a done deal. Time will tell...

03. Taylor Lautner {Jacob} is officially out for New Moon!! Oh yes. There are already petitions surfacing like mad-- can you believe it? I was quite upset about this at first- I really like the actors to stay the same throughout a series and it really irritates me when they don't, but I do know that Lautner's manager presented quite the case to Summit to show how he could appear taller, bigger, and very werewolf-like for the films, but obviously Summit isn't having it. It sucks, yes, but if Summit believes that he wouldn't be realistic enough- than I have to trust that.

04. And can you even guess who they are currently considering for the smoozy role of Jacob???? The one and only FELIX from ONE TREE HILL!!!! The real world might refer to him as Michael Copon. Can you believe it?? That thought never occured to me, but when I look at him, I definitely think he could play the part. But my heart is definitely still longing for Lautner, and I'm not even Team Jacob. This will be very interesting Summit...

05. And finally, Hardwicke has broke the seal on tons of extras and bonuses that the Twilight dvd will feature {SCREAMING YAY!!!!} AND that she is hoping for it's release in early Spring, after Valentine's Day! It will include tons of deleted scenes that didn't make the cut, commentary with Catherine, Robert & Kristen, an exclusive Midnight Sun scene, montages, behind-the-scenes stuf, etc. etc. Check out the whole interview with her here. {squueeeeeee!!!}



I wonder if Summit knew what they were getting their hands into when they signed on for the Twilight saga. Sure, they are making big bucks from it's profits- but they have to deal with a die-hard fan base critiquing their every move. I'm sure that can't be too easy.


Anyway, onto our main man RPattz!!

01. He has two films, already completed, that will be released in 2009. Little Ashes & How To Be. They both look beyond incredible. In Little Ashes he plays Salvador Dali! Check out the imdb page for a plot breakdown. It looks so amazing. They just announced today that it will be released March 27, 2009! And How To Be, the one I am most looking forward to, he plays Art, a young man having an existential crisis and convinces a Canadian self-help guru to come to London and become his personal life coach! Check out the official site here filled with loads of pictures, trailors and updates! I can't wait for this one! See trailors for them here and here.
02. He also has several other movies that are scattered throughout YouTube where you can watch most of them- and believe me I have. Unfortunately there are no plans for any of these to be realeased at this time. But what I have seen of them- they are awesome! They are The Summerhouse {my favorite and possibly the most gorgeous Spunk Ransom. ever!}, The Bad Mother's Handbook {hilarious} and The Haunted Airman.

03. It was also just released that he will begin filming Parts Per Billion as a leading role. “It’s an ensemble story,” explained Rosario Dawson, who will also appear in the film alongside Olivia Thirlby and Dennis Hopper when it begins shooting next month! Check out what else Dawson had to say about it here. Really can't wait for this one!! He will wrap up filming on this one right before Summit hopes to start way on New Moon. What a busy boy!

I will leave you with my current favorite photo of our man.... it has it all, facial scruff, the hair, crooked smile and all his hilariousness. Ahhh... brilliant.



Oh yeah and in case you forgot, today is the original release date for Twilight. Can you imagine if we really had to wait this long? Thanks Summit and Hardwicke for getting it out to us early! :)

{image creds: vf; how to be.}

currently listening to :: how i would be by carter burwell.


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to roam.

Thursday, December 11, 2008


Be sure to keep tabs on my tumblr. I've been updated it regularly and it's filled with lots of goodies. :)

{link in sidebar.}

currently listening to :: i would be the meal by carter burwell.


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dress up.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

My lovely mother has offered to buy me a new outfit to wear on Christmas! How thoughtful is she?? I think I'm leaning toward this little number a la forever 21, however I will dress it down a bit....
Love the dress & the vest, but I will skip the patterned scarf and the shirt underneath. I will probably still layer it over a shirt, but I don't like the baggy sleeves of that one. And I might still add a scarf- but a solid-colored one. And I think I will opt for grey leggings. But I do really love the overall style and the peices are so lovely. Here is the dress & the vest.

And if that doesn't work out I will try out this little black dress via H&M...
I think it would look so cute layered over a longer top with some booties.

I love me some free dresses! :)


currently listening to :: hammond song by the roches.



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hello miss lady.

Monday, December 8, 2008

I actually can't believe that it's Monday already and I am sitting here typing this. Wow. Where did the weekend go?? First I want to say thanks to everyone for your comments on my post from Friday. I wasn't even sure when I was writing it if I would actually post it, but I'm glad that I did. Not only did your thoughts and comments make me feel better, but I found that several of you could relate to what I'm going through- better than I could have ever imagined. So I am very glad that I shared with you and I'm even more glad that my thoughts may have helped someone else out there too. :)

I had a really good weekend- making it even harder to come back to work today. Friday night after work I met up with my girls for some burgers and drinks before heading to see Twilight. In my defense it was only Kathy's second time seeing it and the movie was just listed under the $5 buck club- so we had plenty of very good reasons to go. :) We met up with the boys later and watched Stepbrothers {read: basically crying and pissing yourself for 2 straight hours because of it is beyond hilarious.}

Saturday morning Brian and I got up super early and headed to Madison to go shopping for the day with my dad & sisters. But Kirby reminded me when they came to pick us up to check our stocking's because St. Nic came the night before! Sure enough- "St. Nic" was very good to me. He left me loads of candy, the Twilight collector's edition, and a Twilight poster & pins. :) The collector's edition is the coolest thing!! It has a hard fabric cover, comes in a case, with a red ribbon bookmark attached and red, scroll writing all throughout it. And my favorite part, the rough tattered paper edges- I love it!
Anyway, we spent the day shopping for what seemed like a ridiculous amount of hours. But we did get some Christmas shopping done so that is good. On the way home my sneaky dad had gotten us all something-- Hollie- the Twilight complete illustrated movie companion, Kirby- an unofficial biography of Robert Pattinson, and me- the Twilight calendar! YAY! What an awesome dad; feeding our obsession. I already have the calendar hanging in my cube ready to go for 2009. :)

Saturday night we had the 2nd annual Ugly Sweater Christmas party to attend with the gang. Headed up to the attic to dig out the ridiculousness that is our Christmas Sweaters {Stacey slaved away making them for us last year.} As expected the party was a complete success- much that I could share, but I will spare you. Let's just say it was a crazy night. I will however grant you with a couple pictures.....
Don't judge me. Haha. Didn't get home until after 3 am on Saturday night, so of course we ended up sleeping in until noon! Very not like me. Got up and watched the Viking game and then-holy crap- it was 4 already!!! Did a couple loads of laundry and made some food and then it was time for DH and my usual Sunday night routine. Seriously, where did the time go?? I guess it flies when you're having fun.


currently listening to :: never think by robert pattinson.




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me.

Friday, December 5, 2008


So yeah.... this is really long. You have been warned.

I’m beginning to wonder if I am in a funk or if what I am feeling is just normal. Up until this “funk” started I have always been 110% sure of my choices and my life and more than 110% happy. I loved everything about my life and knew how lucky I was. I hate to say that in past tense, because deep down I still know this- I know that I am happy and that I am truly blessed, but I just can’t seem to shake this depression that is hitting me. I can finally admit that is what it is. What is really frustrating me is that I have no reason for it. No really traumatic events, nothing bad in my life, nothing. I should be utterly happy like I always was before. I just can't figure out why...

This is really the first time that my life is kind of at a standstill. When I was in college I had so much going on in my life that was constantly spinning around me. I had classes and school functions, I was the newspapers’ editor in chief, I was editor of the school magazine, my peers looked up to me and respected me and asked me for help all of the time, I was planning a wedding, we were house hunting and putting in offers, I was working 30 hours a week….. that was my life for so long. Always something happening; hardly ever a moment to spare. I always looked forward to the end- when all of my efforts would finally pay off and I would have time to myself; to do whatever I wanted. So here I am. I’ve officially entered the “adult” world where I can do just that. I’m a college graduate. I’m a wife. I’m a homeowner. I have a full-time career. I have everything that I was aiming for all that time. So why on earth should I be unhappy?

What’s even more frustrating is that I want to be happy, I know that deep down I am happy, but my subconscious just won’t have it. For some reason it’s wallowing; and pissing me off in the process. I should start by saying that my job is a wonderful one and I am extremely lucky. I am treated so well here; I keep very busy; there is always something to do and someone that wants my opinion. Yet it is extremely flexible and easy-going. I work with great people and I make good money. I have no reason not to like my job, and truly I do like it. But I just can’t shake the feeling that what I do doesn’t matter. What am I doing on a daily basis to contribute to the world? What is the world gaining because of me? I know that not everyone can expect their job to give them this satisfaction, and that is probably where I am wrong here. I shouldn’t expect that from my job. And I guess what I am starting to learn is that if I feel that I’m not contributing from my job, then I need to do so in other ways; more creative ways.

I’ve been thinking about it a lot. People say that you “find yourself” in college. Looking back now I see that I truly did just that. In addition to making lifelong friends and obtaining a lifelong degree, I found my true self. No peer pressure to be something I wasn’t like in high school, I was just me. I liked what I liked, and my friends like me for that. I discovered my love for writing. I indulged in my passion for photography. I explored so many new realms of music. I did so many things that the old me wouldn’t have dreamed of. I was truly free to be myself and I basked in it. What I didn’t realize until recently, is what happened after I “found myself.” College graduation came and went. Then we had the wedding and life was completely blissed out. We got settled into the house. Brought home our pride and joy, Guinness. Spent endless days and nights with our truest of friends- taking in everything we possibly could. But somewhere along the line… I stopped doing the things that I loved. Yes I still take photos occasionally and I definitely still listen to a lot of music. But I don’t write anymore {except this blog of course} and I don’t really take photos like I used to {drunken bar photos don’t really count}. Did you know that I used to be able to play guitar? Me! I’m not saying I was a pro by any means, but I enjoyed it. The last time I ever played was nine years ago. Wow.

Anyway, I guess my epiphany here is that this is the first time, literally ever, in my life that it has stood still. There is nothing in the works. Nothing that we’re planning. Nothing that I’m working on. I can’t be sure if this is where my emotions lately have been stemming from, but it’s the best I can come up with and I think that means something. SO now, what am I going to do about it?

Getting our new camera will help I’m sure. I have wanted a digital SLR ever since they came into existence and I am elated that we could finally get one of our own. My passion for photography is a love affair that started when I was only 10 years old and discovered my dad’s vintage Canon AE-1. I still have it. I took the photography class that my high school offered three times because I couldn’t believe I could get credits for it. I continued in college- taking photos for the newspaper & magazine, taking photography classes & Photoshop. Photography has always been close to my heart, so it won’t be hard for me to make this a more dominant part of my life again.

Writing. It might sound silly, but just writing in this blog is very enjoyable for me. I have always been a writer, but I really discovered my love for it in college. My good friend Katie has been trying to convince me for years now to write a book about the lives of our close group of friends from college and where we have all gone in our lives and how we still remain so close. I have no doubt that there is plenty to write about there Kate- unfortunately my memory is not the best and I’m sure I couldn’t get it right. I guess it couldn’t hurt to try though. No matter what form of writing it is- I know that I need to pick this up again because it makes me, me. I keep a notepad and pen on my nightstand because I always have the weirdest dreams. I swear it’s not uncommon for Brian to wake up in the night and find me awake in the corner with the light on scribbling away…. but that’s all I ever do. I never actually do anything with them after that. So maybe there is something there too.

And finally, music. Music has never strayed too far from my heart- I am constantly listening to music. I am serious. Constantly. At work on my computer. At home on the stereo. In my car. And everywhere in between on my ipod. I am never without it and music is the true inspiration in my life. However, I used to play, which I don't anymore. Just guitar and I’m sure not very well considering I was a teenager, but I did enjoy it and that is important. I have been telling Brian for years that I want to get an acoustic guitar to just pick it up when I want. If my memory can suffice I’m sure I could teach myself to learn it again. And Brian even wants to learn to play too! This is definitely something that we will be investing in, in the near future.

So long story short, I think I'm finally on the path to figuring it out. Just talking about things lately with Brian and my friends has made me feel a million times better already. I’m lucky to have such people in my life to rely on. I was a fool to think that no one would notice how off I have been lately. I should have confided in them a long time ago because just talking about things makes me feel better.

Anyway, I'm not even sure if I should even post this. It's basically just the ramblings of my brain and is no doubt scattered and incoherent. But that's me I guess. So, to anyone else out there who has strayed away from their passions-- why? Why do we do this to ourselves? I didn't even realize I was doing it! My life was just busy and that was that. Well, no more for this girl. Life is too short not to do the things I want. And no one ever told me I couldn't in the first place? What the hell was my subconscious thinking??

I can't even tell you how much better I'm feeling. More like myself. I was so completely frustrated that I was sad all the time and I couldn't figure out why?! I'm finally beginning to feel like me again, and me with a purpose.


{where words fail, music speaks. be seeing you. canon. forgotten guitar.}

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array.

I have been saving my pennies for the past 3 months saving up for a big{ger} purchase. You wouldn't think it would be that hard/take that long to save up $189 when you shell out nearly that much for gas in a month- but it is! It always seems like when I get close something happens and need to "borrow" against my special little fund. And of course with Christmas so close- lately it has been next to impossible. And I guess I kind of feel guilty spending that much money on myself too, which is presicely why I started saving little by litte. But I'm hoping that soon, this beauty will be mine.

This bookshelf from CB2 has been floating around the blogosphere for ages! I have seen it everywhere. Literally I have 13 posts about it starred in my GoogleReader! I started saving for it immediately- I knew I had to have it. BUT imagine my astonishment when I spotted it in Edward's bedroom in Twilight!!!!! Yes people, I am serious. I think I actually squealed in the theater. Brian even noticed it because he obviously knows I have been wanting it! haha. I'm asking for CB2 gift cards for Christmas so hopefully I will get some and be able to get it soon! Yippie! How gorgeous does it look with the books on it? I wish I had a screencap of Edward's bedroom....
And just imagine how great it would look with some of these lovelies {that I have also been eyeing} sitting proudly...
I am a lover of the classics and have been trying to build up my collection. How absolutley stunning are these? They were designed by Coralie Brickford-Smith and be bought here. And take a peek at them up close here too.

Lovely.


currently listening to :: to roam by robert pattinson.

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hold on lover.

Thursday, December 4, 2008


If you haven't noticed already via the image/link on the right sidebar, I have finally started up my own tumblr. Very exciting stuff. I have files and files filled with images, quotes, videos-- anything and everything that inspires me, strikes me, fascinates me, or I just plain like! So not only will my tumblr be the place that I can share all of these with you, but since we ordered our new camera yesterday{!} hopefully soon I will have many, many more of my own photos to share with you as well! Enjoy.

{satire.}

currently listening to :: complications by carter burwell.

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