wonder. let go.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

reverb10 is keeping me grounded this year. I know what is important and even if we don't have all the money in the world, and sometimes struggle to get by, the important things of life are in my heart, and that will keep me afloat.

+ How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life last year? +

Wonder     – n –      one that arouses awe, astonishment, surprise, or admiration; a marvel

Well… quite honestly, I didn’t. As positive as I tried to be, the honest answer is that most of the time I just wasn’t. It took me a long time to get that place, but eventually I was. However, I wouldn’t say that it was radiating from me. I wasn’t cultivating anything, especially wonder.

 Although, another honest revelation, is that I don’t think I really knew wonder was something to be ‘cultivated’.  I certainly experienced many things full of wonder; things that were wonder (ful).
 Something else for me to work on in the new year.

+ What (or whom) did you let go of last year? Why? +

I let go of a version of myself this (read: last) year. So many things affected me and changed me and it took me a long time to be able to walk away with only the good parts of that. Referring to one of my favorite lyrics of all time, and that of which I constantly relate to my life…

Control yourself. Take only what you need from it.”

(Thanks MGMT). Very true; yet very hard to do. It may have taken me all year, but I think that I did it; or at least as much of it as I will ever be able to do. Some experiences and some people are just meant to be in your life for a short time. And even if it ends badly, you have to be able to accept that and take from it the good things. Moving on…. it’s not an easy concept. And you can’t rush it… and for me, it happens when I least expect it. And sometimes without even realized it until after the fact. I am happy with where I am at right now.