i am long overdue for an update.
& there are lots of updates.
01. i am once again unemployed. not a very good way to start the new year. i was not happy at my job & i knew that it would eventually end one way or the other- although the week between christmas & new years was not exactly the timing i had in mind. in any event, i am once again looking for a job- & while i don't want to rush into anything forcing me to be unhappy again, i have the constant stress & worry of no current paycheck & the bills keep rolling in..... to say i am utterly confused & lost in my own life is an understatement.
in any event... there are more updates, thankfully less life-altering, drastic updates:
02. we had a wonderful christmas with our family & friends.
we got some amazing gifts, watched the hangover repeatedly, ate & drank to our hearts content, & spent $50 gift cards on only candles.
03. i have amazing friends & family. i have been through so much this past year, & can honestly say that i don't know how i would have made it to where i am now without them. & now here they are again- taking care of me & trying their darndest to make me happy. i have amazing people in my life.
04. we celebrated the new year with a bang. two doses of unemployment amongst various other life letdowns in 2009 had me wishing & waiting for 2010. i am glad that it is here & i am hoping wishing praying for a better year all around.
05. i am re-doing our upstairs bedroom. it is a very unique space in that it is technically like a finished attic... my husband has had it decked out as his man room for the past 2 years, but has used the space a total of 2 times. so, i have taken it upon myself to redo the room into my space, including a bed for guests. due to the recent change in our financial situation, i am doing so with only materials that i already have- making it a very interested task. so far with the help of my friends & sister- we have taken out all of the sports collectibles {very carefully to keep husband happy}, tested 6 different paint colors on the walls, & removed the wood paneling around the chimney to expose the beautiful brick. i am very excited for this project- & am constantly looking for some cheap/free makeover ideas to make this space my own. This is my loose inspiration photo.. though i am going for more of a seafoam green paint color:
my current situation has left me wondering if the life i am living right now is the life that i want. we've been talking about moving, about starting over somewhere new. but it's just all so vague and undefined. i truly don't know that i want from life right now.
i am, however, relieved to feel a little like myself again. for the past 4 months i have been pretty miserable & really just not myself. i haven't been blogging or taking photos & neglecting a lot of people in my life. i just kept waiting for the happiness to come back so i could get back to my life, but it just never, ever came.
& it still hasn't really, but i'm starting to adjust. i am relived to leave that job behind me, but worried about the future. all i can do is follow my heart & that's what i'm trying to do. hopefully it will take me somewhere nice.
i will be spending this week:
applying for area jobs; researching living in other cities; napping with my G; watching Gilmore Girls on dvd; painting the upstairs room; cleaning the house to its core; calling our banks & school loans to see what they can do for us right now {not fun}; & possibly adding a new item to my etsy shop.
i hope to be around a bit more now too.
xx
chelsea
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